On Not Knowing Everything
Over the course of this day, in between tossing and turning trying to find a comfortable position free of vertigo, one question has been nagging me.
That question is: Why does it feel so uncomfortable to not know?
I watch President Obama hang the Medal of Freedom around former President George H.W. Bush’s neck, a man who I’m almost positive played a hand in the assassination of John Kennedy, who oversaw the CIA’s drug empire while Director, and who is widely regarded as being as high in the New World Order as any person I can think of. I ask myself: Why is the President doing that? Surely he knows about ex-President Bush. And I have to admit I don’t know.
Or I discuss with a correspondent whether President Obama is or is not an American citizen. Anderson Cooper says on tonight’s news that he has a “live birth” certificate. My correspondent insists he has no valid certificate. And I have to say to myself that I don’t know.
But in saying that, I notice feeling of failure or defeat. Moreover, in saying to myself that I do know, when I do, I notice a feeling of success or victory.
As well, I feel vulnerable, almost undone, almost in a state of collapse, when I feel that I don’t know and invulnerable, almost in a state of solidity, a made man, when I feel I do know.
What is it that drives me to value the one and not the other?
I don’t know.
I remember being roughly treated as a child whenever I was wrong or whenever I didn’t know. Could that be it?
Or was it all the game shows where the reward goes to the one who knows?
Or is it all the smart crop of current TV shows where everyone is battling with each other to show who knows the most? When the dialogue is so slick, one person adding to the common knowledge after another, that it’s like Sherlock Holmes got cloned.
I don’t know.
Without imploding or falling apart, without condemning myself to jail or selling myself down the river, I just don’t know.
The only glimmer I get is that the one who wants to know is valuing something outside himself that he gets. There is always a reward and that reward is, as far as I can see, almost always something won, something earned, something gotten. Without the hungering for something more, there is no issue.
Why then am I not enough? As I am and as I’m not? Why is what I am insufficient?
It takes a conscious unhooking of myself from the Pavlovian nature of third-dimensional life for me to extract myself from this predicament.
I am enough. I am sufficient. I don’t know and it is not an indictment of myself. I cannot know everything. I have heard avatars (Sri Ramakrishna, for instance) say they don’t know everything – that knowledge is supplied them when they need it.
I passively observe not knowing. I be with the feelings of discomfort that arise. I accept the condition of not knowing. I outlast the feelings of discomfort without acting on them. I am left in just the neutral space of being. I am as I am and as I’m not. That I know and that is all I really know.
The rest is unreal. The rest is identity. The rest is all story.
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When I look back at difficult times in my life and I remember the frustration of not knowing what was to happen. Being young/pregnat/alone with a 5 year old to feed, wondering how I was going to do it.
That was 17 years ago and my older kids are healthy and vibrant. Life works out. I remember the frustration of “why am I going through this?” Just the absolute pain of not knowing what was to be would keep me up at night.
I have to remember these lessons during times like now when I wonder, will aliens REALLY come to earth, during MY lifetime? Is the economy collapsing and life as we know it will be a thing of the past? Will there be a WWW III, all of these certainties of not knowing, wondering.
What I have learned is that life is a lesson and I need to dig in. Would I have learned from my previous lessons if I knew the absoulute outcome? Would the experiences that have happened in my life have given me the wisdom and paitence (God willing sometimes) that I have today? I don’t know that one either.
So believe me, although I am soooooo excited of the wonderful opportunities that (I hope, I hope, I hope) will come to be, and I’m like a kid in a candy store waiting for that wonderful chocolate, I have to wait, learn and grow. That there really is a reason for all of this craziness and that it is truly an honor to be in this lifetime.
Peace Steve, hope you feel better soon.
Maria
It takes a great man (or woman) to admit when they don’t know something. Life is by guess and by golly and we all stumble along and try to trust our intuition. We are all in this together and I think it would behoove a lot of people to admit that they don’t know, either. I don’t know about any of this stuff. But the synchronicities have been out of this world (!) that have lead me to where I am, and so my intuition tells me I’m right where I’m supposed to be. So that tells me that maybe I’ve stumbled to the right place. But really, I don’t know
Yesterday I found myself sending Love & Light to a list of people who I previously disdained or worse. Realizing that we are all one and even the darkest of the dark is still a Godspark who requires our Love & Light helped me turn the page. Perhaps Obama felt the same as he placed that medal around Bush’s neck. My Love & My Light to you, to you all.
Stephen,
Would you like to take on the task of organizing Ho’oponopono for the Worldwide March of Millions?
If so, come on aboard the site and begin writing on the subject.
Namaste,
Steve
Nice post. Accepting and being aware of not knowing is the essence of being in the moment. Or we might say that being in the moment IS all we actually know. The rest is just second hand information, conjecture or memory.
The rational mind will never be able to understand everything. It can only understand the physical world. It’s our spiritual mind (heart/soul/spirit/Self) that is able to holistically grasp the larger picture and accept the immense amount of information that is able to come to us only in the present moment and only as it is needed.
Peace.
As I have learned (rather remembered) from the teachings of the Galactics that you “DO KNOW”. We all “KNOW” all there is because we are all of the creator. We have agreed to collectively pretend that we do not know in the illusion that we have created. One of our off world teachers said that we all play our part in this false reality and it ALL contributes to our spiritual growth. Does the creator love Obama more than George Bush. He does not. He loves all of us. From the lowest to the highest vibration we are all of the creator and loved equally. We are all on the same path. The truth lies in the heart and not the mind………………….buzz
So very true, Buzz. Thank you!!!
True wisdom in a person is when one realizes that they don’t have all the answers.
There are many old proverbs and sayings from all over the world in ancient times that
state that far better than I just tried to.
True humility is a sign if a true and wonderfully wise leader with genuine courage!
I have seen that in you, Steve, and I have seen it in Obama as well.
It is difficult to imagine how he must have felt as he put that medal of freedom on
such an unworthy individual. All I can think of this and of other times when he has
had to do something that is not kindred to his core beliefs, is that he has to do certain things in his job that he would rather not do, just as all of us do at times. It is my hope that he will soon
have the courage not to go against what he knows as truth in all matters. So much of
government is just for “show” and nothing more.
Thank you for being real, Steve, and I pray that President Obama and every being on Earth will continue to become who they are in every moment in Light and Love and Truth!
Steve:
Within my 3D humaness, I, too, am frustrated at ‘not knowing’ certain things. My schooling (indoctrination) was within the field of science, and I was taught to use only my five physical senses when making scientific observations. Of course, this was by design . . . the Illuminati does not want us to look beyond our five senses for answers . . . they do not want us to make the vital connection with our Soul Voices. When we do make that connection, we realize all answers lie within, not outside of ourselves, and the Illuminati loses its power over us.
By design, we cannot have absolute access to our superconsciousness that resides within our Over-Soul. If we did have complete access, we would be inundated with information, and our incarnations as human beings would be without value. We incarnate in order to learn lessons and expand the Universe with our choices of experience. We incarnate to experience what our Over-Soul already knows. It’s one thing to know something, and quite another to experience that something. For example, you can learn the concepts of chemistry by reading the texts, but until you enter the laboratory and actually experience the concepts, you don’t really ‘understand’ the concepts.
The Over-Soul gives us, on a need to know basis, what we need at any given time. The way this is carried out is through our intuition . . . our sixth sense. And this is why modern day science is so lacking . . . Universal Science includes the sixth sense . . . something the Illuminati does not want us to know.
Having written the above, how do I ‘know’ President Obama is of the Light and doing all he can to spread the Light, at the same time he is giving George H.W. Bush an award? My belief comes from intuition, or faith . . . I just know it. Could I be wrong? . . . no, not in the ‘Now’ moment, but since no one can accruately predict the future, President Obama could change his course . . . my intuition says it is highly unlikely.
So, INUTITION, coming from my Over-Soul is how I KNOW President Obama is doing the best he can under extremely difficult circumsances.
When faced with ‘not knowing’ on other subjects, even after I’ve meditated using my Soul Voice connection, I simply understand that I don’t have a need to know basis at the time . . . perhaps later, when a certain timeline is encountered. Your Soul Voice will NEVER lead you astray.
Love and Light,
Jack
Steve, Think how you would feel if you were George H.W. Bush, having that Medal hung around your neck, and knowing that you were just a clone. Malcolm.
Thank you Steve and thank you everyone who has posted on this thread. I can so relate to what everyone has said. Steve I have meniers disease and I know only too well what the bouts of vertigo are like! But what has REALLY excited me is the photo with this article….ice blue…..I do Ho’oponoopono all the time on everything that shows up on my radar screen! I had just come off the Ho’oponoopono forum of Mabel Katz when I logged on to this site! Then I scroll down to read the comments and Steve mentions Ho’oponoopono! What synchronicity! Wow! I was already doing Ho’oponoopono as I was reading the article! So whether Obama knows or not is immaterial in the eyes of Source the great ‘I AM’. When I feel confused about not knowing I do EFT too…..’even though I don’t know I deeply and completely love and accept mysef’ and I tap. There are so many tools now that we are so familiar with that can transform the world as we know it…..of course that means transforming ourselves first……’there is no out there, out there’…I realised why I was so fascinated and delighted with the Egypt stand for freedom from tyranny…..I myself was in the internal process of freeing myself of the tyanny of conditioned thinking or ‘memories as Ho’oponoopono would call it! As within so without…..Thank you
Peace of ‘I’
Liz
Very well said Jack and Liz! Yes,by whatever name we call it intuition , gut feeling or higher self in my heart of hearts I believe Obama is a great man and President.I too was disterbed when this came on CNN news and Bush sr. was recieving a Freedom award from Obama.I just turned the channel and reminded myself that the President has to do alot of things he probably does not like doing ,but has to.I prefer now to follow Hatonns advice about Obama.Hatonn said that if we knew what was going on behind the scenes that we would all be chearing him on.We can usually tell by observing an individual in political office weather they are telling the truth or not by watching there eyes.(I learned this in security and it applys to everyone)If they will not make enough eye contact while speaking then they are most likely untruthful.One thing I’ve noticed about Obama is he maintains eye contact.The window to the soul cannot lie!!!!
Thanks for your honesty, Steve, and for all that you do. The illusion that is perpetuated in our materialistic culture is that we are supposed to know, we are supposed to have all the answers and be able to figure everything out. But I believe it is part of our make-up to “not know”, because our purpose is to learn, and grow as we learn through our experiences here. From not knowing comes faith, trust, and an opening of the heart.
Steve, You are doing beyond what most people have the courage to do. and I totally
respect your heart and loyalty, I can’t tell you how much your site has done for my
own growth and my desire to partake in the events of the near future. I send you
lots of light!!!
Karen